Did you know…

that today is Birthmothers Day?  18 months ago I had never heard of this special day but now that adoption is such a part of our lives I can feel it really tugging at my heart. 

I’ve spent a lot of time lately thinking about the mother who gave birth to Beaux.  I wonder how old she is/was?  What does she look like?  Does she share the same big coconut eyes that Beaux has?  I also think about the circumstances that led my little brown eyed boy to his current living situation… Maybe she already had 7 little mouths to feed and another one was just too much to provide for?  Maybe she was injured or killed in the earthquake? Maybe she died from disease? ….Maybe?

I used to be so scared at the thought of having a relationship with Beaux’s birth mom.  I thought about it being awkward and uncomfortable…(thinking it’s all about me).   But the further along we get in this adoption process the more I wish I could meet her. I would love to tell her THANK YOU for giving life to such an awesome little guy.  I would tell her how much joy he brings to our life even though we don’t even have him home with us yet.  I would sit down, with her hand in mine, and listen to her story of desperation and sorrow and cry right along side of her.  I would tell her she is the bravest woman I know.  And I would tell her how much God loves her.

I’ll probably never meet my boy’s birth mom this side of heaven, but I pray that God will send her a sign to let her know that her boy is safe and loved more than these two older parents knew they could love.

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I saw this in Facebook this morning…

and I just had to share….

“When you say YES to adoption, you are saying YES to enter the suffering of the orphan, and that suffering includes WAITING FOR YOU TO GET TO THEM. I promise you, their suffering is worse than yours. We say YES to the tears, YES to the longing, YES to the maddening process, YES to the money, YES to hope, YES to the screaming frustration of it all, YES to going the distance through every unforeseen discouragement and delay. Do not imagine that something outside of “your perfect plan” means you heard God wrong. There is NO perfect adoption. EVERY adoption has snags. We Americans invented the “show me a sign” or “this is a sign” or “this must mean God is closing a door” or “God must not be in this because it is hard,” but all that is garbage. You know what’s hard? Being an orphan. They need us to be champions and heroes for them, fighting like hell to get them home. So we will. We may cry and rage and scream and wail in the process, but get them home we will.” –Jen Hatmaker

I love that Jen Hatmaker
I’m fighting to get my little guy home.
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